but i guess the most interesting thing to share is that this guy i hooked up with a couple weeks ago (and for awhile forever ago at the beginning of freshman year) and one of my best friends and i were the only three in our friend group to go to hard on friday and we had the best time and just were so happy and lovey and aw it was just the nicest best time and then we wandered around downtown la for like an hour and then went hot tubbing and cuddled and tried to sleep for hours and awww i was worried about it being weird since it was such a small group but it was so perfect
and then saturday that guy and i drove over to hard just the two of us because like other people were doing other things and he had been playing electronic music like only since i guess that’s the mood we were all in because of hard, but he played a bunch of the weeknd and was singing along to all of it and just oh my word. and he was talking about how friday was so amazing and tonight would be so different (because a ton of our friends were coming) but like it would also be so great.
so we got there and hung out for like an hour maybe when we were coming up at a-trak and then like after that we met up with some of our other friends and he started grinding and making out with this girl (who is so much younger than him that they didn’t even attend our school at the same time) which like yeah sure that’s like what you do when you roll basically. but she was just really drunk but then later in the night he like gave her half a pill or something but yeah. and this continued the WHOLE night like never stopped.
which i was fine with because like i was rolling so whatever. and he came up to me like 10 times during the night being like “yesterday was so amazing. this night is great but it doesn’t even compare” and things like that. but then i could tell all my friends thought it was weird and i actually overheard one of them talking to him. and they kept telling him to “cut out the pda” like in a joking way because like it’s a rave and that’s like not a thing, but they only said it to him and no one else and like a lot of times…… and i just got sort of paranoid that everyone was worrying about me or something because they were all sort of trying to be extra inclusive of me, which was super nice but i just felt weird. because the girl i went with on friday had her like boy there on saturday so i felt really third wheel-y with them. and then there was a group of freshmen and i’m friends with them but not as close as they are with each other, so that felt weird too. and then there were a couple of that guy’s friends, who i am friends with, but also not as close as they are with each other.
and then i started getting really nauseous during skrillex, so i just like looked unhappy but i wasn’t i just felt like i was going to throw up, but then i felt like people thought i was just saying that and was actually upset about that guy and yeah idk this is so long no one is reading this……
BUT WE ARE GETTING TO THE WEIRD PART:
that guy and the girl he was making out with all night went back to our friend’s apartment with a bunch of us and we went hot tubbing and hung out and then he invited me back to her hotel room (?????) and the three of us and one of her friends all slept in one bed together (?????????????) and then we all woke up and got brunch this morning and went to the beach and dinner and then he drove us back to school and went to her apartment to sleep (or whatever)
but then like the weird part is that like i sat in the passenger seat of his car all day while that girl and her friend sat in the back and like i have no seretonin in my brain right now so everything is weird and hard to interpret emotionally. it’s just confusing. but oh yeah also he’s like at her apartment right now and texting me?? so idk. i should sleep.